It’s a question which has become a cliche for me, but somehow keeps coming back – If today was the last day of your life, how would you spend it or what would you have done differently or are you satisfied with what you have done? . The question gets repeated, sometimes in my head but most often, by my grandfather.
There have been countable few moments when I have questioned myself. And I have had various answers. But today while sitting with Mutacha and just talking, I realised that I have a long list. A long list of things I still want to do but somehow feel that the time is running out. Is the time running out? I have no clue. But it feels like it.
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That’s what I wrote 3months ago and saw it in my drafts. I continue this post cause I thought of the same thing this evening.
Have I loved enough?
Have I been loved enough?
Have I stood up for myself when I should have?
Have I got what I deserved? Or did I get something more? Or did I settle for something less?
Have I been happy enough? or expressed my anger when I felt it deep inside?
Have I?
What if today was the last day of my life?